Studio City, California


Checking against the journal in preparation for writing Why Did I Say Farewell

Meh! It just isn't coming today. I'm tired and there's something wrong with a music track Im involved with producing that's got me preoccupied. I thought I'd be able to channel my not-great feelings into the next poignant, but rather downer of a song where Maud visits her father's grave for the first time, but I feel like a can of Cheez Whiz - everything coming out of me is cheesy! I know what I want to say, but it's lacking impact. So, rather than continue frustrating myself, I think the best thing to do is just leave it 'til tomorrow and come at it fresh then. Five'll get you ten I end up scrapping the lyrics I've written today and replacing them with all-new ones. Right now every idea just seems to be bouncing off my head and I can't get what's in my head out to the keyboard. It happens.

Maybe what I'll have to do is write the song portion out in normal dialogue first, and then translate that into lyric form. Because I'm losing what I'm wanting to say in my struggle to put good lyrics down. It's also not easy sometimes, trying to write here at work where I can be interrupted at any second. That's had something to do with it today, but not much. It's more the fog in my head.

Sometimes I look over what I've written and think "Is this even any good? Who do you think you are, trying to write a musical?" Then there are other times I look over it all and feel like it's going to kick some major butt, which is how I feel most of the time. Today, though...urf. But tomorrow, tomorrow...there's always tomorrow. It's only a day away.

Wait - that's already been done. Annie of Green Gables?

You know if I still have my sense of humour that it can't be all bad.