North Hollywood, California
Maybe I was too cocky? Or maybe I just jinxed it. Whichever - today's historic moment fell a little flat. Part of it was the sheer "scope" of the scene - I felt like, "No pressure there!" But I was feeling pressured. I was trying to get stuff done before my boss came in; then I had to run an errand at lunch that look longer than it should have and it was hot which made me cranky; then when I got back I suddenly had to do actual work. By the time all that was past, I sat down to try to write...and it just kind of wouldn't come. I wrote the dialogue part, but the song...ugh. It's the first one so far I've tried to write to pre-existing music and it wasn't as easy as I remembered. You have to fit certain things, not only syllabically (is that even a word?), but also in tone and mood. Your words have to match what the music's saying. I can feel what I want to get across put I just couldn't get it out of me the way that I wanted. The thing that torques me about that is, since tomorrow's Friday and Monday's a holiday, it could be 5 days before I can get back to work on this. Maybe that's the time I need to let the ideas roll around in my head, but...I wanted to be finished today. Busting out a scene in a day generally hasn't been a problem. Today it was.

Also, I wonder if I might not be running out of steam somewhat. After all, I've been writing like mad for 6 weeks. I wasn't happy with Ewan's proposal, either - it might actually be all right, but it was rough. Leo has yet to see it; maybe once he does I'll realize it's OK; maybe I'm just too close to it. At the moment, I'm feeling frustrated, but when I look back at how much I've done since 20 July, it does help me realize that this little block is just temporary.

Maybe the trick is not to shoot video logs when starting a scene!